I haven't blogged in awhile and Travis was getting on my case about it last night. I tried to explain that I didn't have anything "good" to blog about but what I really meant was that I have only negative things to blog about. I remember my sister posting a few months ago that she was tired of reading blogs that are all about how wonderful every ones lives are going and that she felt like something was wrong with her because her entire life wasn't roses. I decided today to post in her honor because while my life is great and full of blessings, I also struggle with many trials.
With the economy in trouble, I worry constantly about the security of Travis' job. I try to think positively but daily the worries are invading my brain. I thought that it was funny on Saturday night when I went to tuck the kids into bed I found them sleeping in their fort they constructed out of cardboard boxes. I was glad that they woke up thinking that it was great fun to sleep in a box because I have had nightmares where we are living in cardboard boxes under the new freeway up the road. At least if worst comes to worst, I'll remind the children how they used to earn the privilege of sleeping in boxes. :)
This morning I had my routine check up with my endocrinologist and just assumed that everything would be great. To my great disappointment I learned that I have only lost 19 lbs in the past 8 months courtesy of a diet consisting mainly of veggies and chicken and an hour of exercise a day. Too make matters worse, my labs were exactly the same as they were before I made this drastic lifestyle change. After crying in the doctors office for 45min and then 35 more minutes in the parking lot, I drove myself to Subway and ate a sandwich on WHITE bread- oh yeah, and a cookie (oh it was heaven!). When you haven't eaten bread in 8 months it tastes better than chocolate! I am thinking about donating my brand new tennis shoes to the Goodwill and perhaps I will go buy a new wardrobe that consists of spandex. Everyone knows that spandex is a one size fit all type of fabric, so I figure I will always have something to wear as I sit on my couch watching TV and eating toast, and crackers, and pretzels - oh the possibilities are endless!
So this is my negative post. Hopefully I won't have many more of these in the future but I figure this at least makes a very real journal entry.